Back to college

People believe that college life is the best part of one's life.The friends,the group,the bunks,the professers,the girlfrnds/boyfrnds and sometimes studies, all of these and much more makes up an individual's college life.No one can afford to forget the freshers party,or the farewell,the convocation,or the annual festivals of their college.Truly,college life is the best part of life for a few,and for the other lot like me,I hate being in college.

I am an engineering student.In India it is tough to get admission in a professional course,and tougher to get admission in the college like mine.B.E. is a degree of four years ,and I have already completed two.And now I am back to college for the Third,and I dont like being back in college.The reason?Read on,May be its your story too.

24 july 2006 was the golden date when I joined the college.I was really excited about the college life like every school child.I felt that college means growing up,and searching for the true identity of oneself. College to me was loads of fun,a bit of studies,haging out in canteen with frnds,bunking lectures and going for movies....in all everything that you would have wanted to do when you went to college.

I am an introvert,but somehow I managed to make 6 really good frnds here.Whom I trusted and still do a lot. Whom I believed could and would help me out in every situation.That was a lot to expect or may be it is not something to be demanded for in college .I dint know.I was new to college.

Then all 7 of us made frnds with a group of guys.And we had a HUGE group.And it was everything I ever wanted.A huge group with which I could enjoy the life at college.It was working all fine in the first few couple of moths.And then later on...Everything changed...or should I say annihilated.The issues are not to be discussed,but briefly,we all broke off, Specially I was kind of boycotted.I dont say that I was innocent,but I do say that I was not clever enough to prove my point.

So was the first year with many many fights amongst me and my frnds,differences,humiliation and that was not fun at all.Our group no longer remained mine and I lost all of my interest in college then.College life without frnds is lifeless. The enjoyment and fun we 7 frnds had in the lectures were lost. Some of us could not stand each other then and dint talk out anything.

But slowly and steadily things started falling in corerct places and all of us,7 of us,came back together.But the differences already created were difficult to overcome. The bitterness in mind was not easy to be erased.Still then,we are still together.It has been a long time and each one of us may not be comfortable with rest of us,but still we are together.Though all of us have found out the only ppl we want to share our secrets with.

Of The people we share our secrets with one of them is essentially our boyfrnds.The concept of Boyfrnds and girlfrnds in college looks fun only when we are not involved in any relation like that.Once we get into that its really hard to set one's priority to other things and giving time to other frnds.Weekends are devoted to dating and nights devoted to long phone chats.

In colleges,or as to say my college specially, many couples are formed just for the sake of being in a couple.Such things make me lose interest in the word Relationship as such.I dont understand who is trying to fool whom by roaming about in a couple they acctually dont belong to or have no longing for.

All these things make me lose interest in college and my life as a whole.The only good days that I have had during my college is the time of vacation in which I went back home.I dont know whether college would be able to teach me anything worth or not but definitely it has taught me the value of home and family and also taught me to be diplomatic. So I dont like being back to college but here I am to do another year of college BACK TO COLLEGE...