Just a Thought

A saturday afternoon... U have nothing else to do so u go and sit in a nearby contest going on.... some beauty pageant kind of... but on a very small scale... to let u kno the exact amplitude of the event,say there are just 20 contestants ... (not by choice but because no one else registered)... All dressed up in vivid attires and wearing loads of makeup..they all are wearing expensive clothes and by the way they carry themselves u can say that they all belong to affluent families ,or are not destitute if not very rich...

The contest is going on in the parking area of a Large brand ...We would here call that brand "X" ... Even though it is winters,the sun is shining brightly and all the girls are sweaty waiting for the judges... some wear sunglasses and others just condemn the organisers for makng them sit in the hot sun for so long... The prize of the event "free shopping worth Rs.5000 and a free makeover"

And then they come... the judges ... equally dressed up ... they look affluent and well educated too...and have a good personality.....

Finally the drama starts and the girls are called one by one on the stage for the first round.. Topic : "tell us something about yourself" ..one of the girls give a beautiful answer of "helping the traumatised people of mumbai attack by counselling them" and all the hands come together for clapping...Some others talk about helping the destitute and other social things done by them,equally beautiful....

And then u spot that many "cycle walas" and "thelewalllas" are peering in the contest area(it was in open)... Still the girls do not alllow these people to daunt them and the show goes on...

As the show nears its end,and the final FIVE stand on the stage,you see a young girl,very poor peering into the show... and then you think, is this teh real motive of "Ms X"? One of the affluent girls,for whom the shopping of Rs.5000 may not mean a iota of difference,would win, and that will satiate her hunger for winning for quite sometime,and then she would forget all of this ...but what is the use of that prize when it can not be for good?

All this kind of contests meant for just gaining public interest,cant be made in interest of the public? What is the need for so many contests for the affluent who already have all this,but cant a part of it devoted to the needy who are capable but cant be a part because they cant afford it?

"HELPING THE DESTITUTE" sounds so worn out now,because people now use it only to gain public attention and kudos...

Be it the girls working for YOUR entertainment in a recreation club, or the unwanted girl children of the poor, you can see them digging in the dirt of the dustbins so that they can have something to eat, and so u can see certain people leering over the little girls as they are vulnerable.. Dont these girls have the same rights to have the happiness that others have?

Just ask yourself, What if you were that cindrella waiting for your godmother....And if you dont like that idea,try becoming god mother to atleast one cindrella... give them the happiness they deserve...

Just For You

Today I sit thinking,What I was and what I am,

What the time is bringing,Is it better,Or is it lame

Life didnt turn,The Way I wanted it to,

So many lessons to learn,Everything seems new

I dreamt of stars,But landed on ground,

Wanted to go far,Searching happiness never found

Were My dreams not conceivable,or so profound

that the melody ended and now there is no sound

I dont know if its imaginary or real,

I dont know if you have felt the way I feel,

I dont know is it easy for you or tough,

I dont know If I pleaded you enough

I am lost and I wait for a hand,

which I think is lost,but waiting I stand

In the darkness of woods and silent surroundings,

I wait for you,and days I am counting

I hope that there must be something,

That I can do or say to make you stay,

A second chance is all I am asking,

So that I can be with you Someday

I hope that someday you would feel,

The same feelings that are hard for me to conceal

I hope that someday life will be benign

And that someday I would be fine....

My Friends

Today is just another day.And I am here sitting to write yet another entry to my blog.You may think that I make an entry only when I am feeling low and really need to spill the beans,and in that case you are quite right in your assessment.

My life has always been easy...or I am lucky as you may say.Everything is perfect in my life.. loving family,loyal boyfriend,good education,prosperous career waiting ahead and whatever you feel that can make a person happy and cheerful..I have all of that and much more.Still then there are certain times when I feel it would have been better the other way or that certain changes are required.If anything is constant in this world it is the change.I was a happy and cheerful person with my simple and easygoing life...till when I decided to add a little complexity to it...and since then my life has been hell lot complicated.

Complications are not something that I would like to discuss on a public blog like this.But what I would like to share is what I feel,What I think and What are the consequences I think I will go through.

I am 20 years of age now and I have seen many friends come and go through.Friends would not be the perfect word as many of them were more like aquaintances and we interacted only when required.And what I feel is that we like the people only when we know just a little about them.
Think of the situation like this.A little girl has been given a beautiful doll made of cloth and cotton to her by her grand mother. The little girl loves playing with it because of its beauty and softness.But one day while playing,by accident she happens to tear the doll apart,and all the stuffing and cotton of the doll comes out.It is when the little girl acctually comes to know how ugly is the doll from inside and hence starts hating it and abandons it.

Similar to the above situation ,When you meet a new person,what you show that person is that you are a perfect person and have only good attributes in you.But it is a fact that no one is that perfect and evryone has certain drawbacks.Similarly it applies to the other person too.You like that person because you like his/her picture potrayed to you by himself/herself.As you start going into details of the person,the things would start resurfacing and then you may not be quite comfortable with the person and you say it is lack of compatibility,whereas it is acctually the understanding that is now coming your way. Love comes in misunderstanding,And when understanding comes,hatred comes along.

May be this is one of the reasons of the frequent break ups,heart breaks and broken relationships.It is also the reason of the trust being lost and the spaces that come between two people.It is not that the person changes,He has always been like that for his whole life,for a person's nature never changes,But what has changed is the way you look at the person,your perspective.

And this is definitely the case with me,and a lot of us.I have not changed at all.This is what I have been all my life,Its just that I am afraid of losing friends and family if I let out these attributes of me.And if I want to be loved,I should potray myself flawless and not let any one know about my weaknesses.

It is what I have learned from all my relationships,aquaintances that everything..and even when I am hurt,I choose to get to know more people..learn more about how the emotions really work,When is it the best time to continue it forward and when to let go...Cause if I give up then I would never know if a bright side to this exists...

So here I am....In the pursuit of the horizon....

Welcome to India

Welcome to India!! Diverse nature,culture,people,languages,states,traditions and there exists a longer list to show the diversity.For further guidance let me quote the preamble of our constitution here :

"WE, THE PEOPLE OF INDIA, having solemnly resolved to constitute India into a SOVEREIGN SOCIALIST SECULAR DEMOCRATIC REPUBLIC and to secure to all its citizens:
JUSTICE, social, economic and political;
LIBERTY of thought, expression, belief, faith and worship;
EQUALITY of status and of opportunity;
and to promote among them all
FRATERNITY assuring the dignity of the individual and the unity and integrity of the Nation"

Over the last 61 years of independence and democracy India ,still considered one of the younger nations has reached many horizons and at the same time seen many downfalls as well.Be it the reign of Gandhis aur Nehru's , Hindus or Muslims,India has tried to flourish, and all that bacame possible only due to the integrity the people of india maintained. But over the last few years ,this integrity has been shown way out as people tend to put their states,caste,creed above nation. whether it be injustice to Manipur player who was denied olympics, or the partition of thoughts on the nuclear deal due to political advantages, or the inappropriate behaviour at the parliament during the trust vote,all of this and much more has caused India a fortune.

The very recent Jaya Bachchan Case adds testimony to the fact that Indians have lost all of their Faith in being called "Indians" and would rather be called "Maharashtriyan". The actions taken by Raj thackrey are highly inappropriate and would cause Indian integrity to suffer a lot.These actions were taken only in order to gain political advantage and publicity.These kind of happenings are also inappropriate in way that politics should not be mixed with bollywood as the artists are incapable of playing the tactics most of the politicians play in order to get the advantage.

Hence in order to turn india back to India of our dreams we need to remove the mask of our respective states and treat all others equally,Not as Maharashtriyans or bengalis,Rajasthanis or Kashmiris but as Indians, And it will be only then when India can get back to a steady development to super power.

Back to college

People believe that college life is the best part of one's life.The friends,the group,the bunks,the professers,the girlfrnds/boyfrnds and sometimes studies, all of these and much more makes up an individual's college life.No one can afford to forget the freshers party,or the farewell,the convocation,or the annual festivals of their college.Truly,college life is the best part of life for a few,and for the other lot like me,I hate being in college.

I am an engineering student.In India it is tough to get admission in a professional course,and tougher to get admission in the college like mine.B.E. is a degree of four years ,and I have already completed two.And now I am back to college for the Third,and I dont like being back in college.The reason?Read on,May be its your story too.

24 july 2006 was the golden date when I joined the college.I was really excited about the college life like every school child.I felt that college means growing up,and searching for the true identity of oneself. College to me was loads of fun,a bit of studies,haging out in canteen with frnds,bunking lectures and going for movies....in all everything that you would have wanted to do when you went to college.

I am an introvert,but somehow I managed to make 6 really good frnds here.Whom I trusted and still do a lot. Whom I believed could and would help me out in every situation.That was a lot to expect or may be it is not something to be demanded for in college .I dint know.I was new to college.

Then all 7 of us made frnds with a group of guys.And we had a HUGE group.And it was everything I ever wanted.A huge group with which I could enjoy the life at college.It was working all fine in the first few couple of moths.And then later on...Everything changed...or should I say annihilated.The issues are not to be discussed,but briefly,we all broke off, Specially I was kind of boycotted.I dont say that I was innocent,but I do say that I was not clever enough to prove my point.

So was the first year with many many fights amongst me and my frnds,differences,humiliation and that was not fun at all.Our group no longer remained mine and I lost all of my interest in college then.College life without frnds is lifeless. The enjoyment and fun we 7 frnds had in the lectures were lost. Some of us could not stand each other then and dint talk out anything.

But slowly and steadily things started falling in corerct places and all of us,7 of us,came back together.But the differences already created were difficult to overcome. The bitterness in mind was not easy to be erased.Still then,we are still together.It has been a long time and each one of us may not be comfortable with rest of us,but still we are together.Though all of us have found out the only ppl we want to share our secrets with.

Of The people we share our secrets with one of them is essentially our boyfrnds.The concept of Boyfrnds and girlfrnds in college looks fun only when we are not involved in any relation like that.Once we get into that its really hard to set one's priority to other things and giving time to other frnds.Weekends are devoted to dating and nights devoted to long phone chats.

In colleges,or as to say my college specially, many couples are formed just for the sake of being in a couple.Such things make me lose interest in the word Relationship as such.I dont understand who is trying to fool whom by roaming about in a couple they acctually dont belong to or have no longing for.

All these things make me lose interest in college and my life as a whole.The only good days that I have had during my college is the time of vacation in which I went back home.I dont know whether college would be able to teach me anything worth or not but definitely it has taught me the value of home and family and also taught me to be diplomatic. So I dont like being back to college but here I am to do another year of college BACK TO COLLEGE...